I've been struggling a lot lately with feeling stuck and hopeless about my situation. I have several chronic health issues that limit my ability to work or be independent. I'm also dealing with gender dysphoria and loneliness as an asexual gay man. I've tried so many things to improve my mental health - therapy, support groups, meditation, exercise - but nothing seems to help. If anything, some of those things make me feel worse.
The only thing that gives me any temporary relief is comfort eating, even though I know it's not healthy. I'm at a normal weight, but I get stomach aches when I try to eat healthier. I feel empty and angry a lot of the time.
I know there are larger circumstances contributing to my depression - discrimination, political issues, economic struggles. But it feels like there's no way out unless I get incredibly lucky and gain access to gender-affirming healthcare.
Most days I'm just trying to survive and distract myself with fiction, music, or food. I wish I could just meditate away my discomfort, but it feels impossible given my situation. I don't know what else to do or try at this point. Has anyone else felt this stuck and hopeless? How do you keep going?
